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Saturday, October 22, 2011

There was a letter which was addressed to writer Chethan Bhagath on his controversial statements against the IT big shot N.R.Narayana Murthy.I found some of the content objectionable and here I am to record it.The copy of the letter can be found in the below link

Dear NRN well-wishers/Bhagath haters,

I happened to see the letter written to Mr.Bhagath.Being a Chethan Bhagath admirer -if not a hard core fan- the content did not go well with me.And here I am to record my opinion.

I would like to clarify few things before proceeding.I have some respect(note, not frenzy) on N.R.Narayana Murthy(NRN).He doesn't need my or any others testimony for his act of building an empire which not only was successful but also proved to be a pioneer to the Indian IT industry. But being successful doesn't assure greatness.There are lot of things beyond success and of course success is the last thing that comes under the long list of prerequisites for greatness. That's my notion and to me NRN is nothing more than a successful business man.period.

Leaving alone the episode and the pleasantries exchanged by both the parties,it is very obvious that the content of the note is highly one-sided, open to misinterpretation and (sorry to say) written in a poor taste in some places.It kinda insinuate Chethan as some random commoner who is trying to gain publicity.(Where he was already declared one of the 100 most influential people of the world by Time magazine) .More worse, the article portarys like NRN is a philanthropist and he runs a charity organization which is funniest of all, that made me to give a response to the letter.

Forgetting the admiration and favoritism on both of them, when I see the whole episode in a neutral angle.I get an impression that both of them are right in what they say.Both of their statements very well paint the real picture of the sorry state of education and pathetic state of corporate organizations in the country.But when looking at the intentions behind the statements the allegiances surely tend to change and I can't help supporting Chethan.I mean NRN might be right but why does he say that?.What are the intentions and reasons behind it?

Is he very much concerned about the lives and future of IITians who pass-out.Had he lost his sleep brooding over the standard of the education in the country.If so he should not have slept for his entire lifetime as the standard of education in this country has been of low quality all along. If he has any such concerns why on earth it is restricted to IIT students only.Could any of the NRN supporters enlighten my little mind on that?.

The reason,I guess as I see it, is obviously the IT business that directly depend on institutes like IIT which provide the firepower i.e knowledge asset to the industry in the form of students every year.IIT being the sanctuary of bright minds of the country easily forms the right place to look for them.They lure students with a large sum of money and when there are differences in expertise or output these grumbles come out.So there is a business motive, selfish reasons to an extent.The IIT director and few IIT insiders themselves seemed to have echoed the same views about the quality.But the attempts to corroborate NRN's view with their views is not so sensible.

The fact that quality is not to the mark might be true but in what vein it is said makes a lot of difference.The below statement which was actually said by NRN could give you a clear picture,

"Thanks to the coaching classes today, the quality of students entering IITs has gone lower and lower.They somehow get through the joint entrance examination, but their performance in IITs, at jobs or when they come for higher education in institutes in the US is not as good as it used to be. This has to be corrected. A new method of selection of students to IITs has to be arrived at," added Mr Murthy

Its a big joke when someone who owns a place where the new recruits are treated like herds of sheep talk about methods.I hear Tihar is a better place than your Mysore training campus.Is it?.Can you get back to me on that?.

Forget it,coming back to the point,the statements look more like a fault finding,sarcastic statement than a real concern for the institute or students .

Chethan's sharp remarks as a response also seems to be as a result of the above notion as per articles.Not everybody will keep their mouth shut when someone address them from their high pedestal,right?.Obviously when someone says you are no good ,anyone for that matter will say, "Dude,look at the dirt on your back first".And being an IIT passed out Chethan had done the same.

Also I don't find Chethan's criticisms on corporates (especially IT) unfair either.(He also has said in the end that his comments are also high-handed as that of NRN's).Forget Chethan's accusations.To look things as it is,obviously the IT business model in India is not something that can be bragged about.Yes we make money,damn lot of it but apart from the money we don't get anything.The credit goes somewhere else just because we are not the main players and our role (as we have established) is to be just a consultant for a foreign company which outsource projects for a cheaper production rate involved.In short we work for companies not people and retaining the good graces of those companies is everything for these IT corporates.

Ironically, India leads the IT industry but the contribution of IT firms to India is very less or almost zero even in terms of commercial motives. We are busy polishing the American shoes and find glory in it but we don't have time to wash our own dirty,ugly faces.In a way there are not a lot of differences between call centers and IT firms except that the only difference being call centers deal with individual citizens and these IT firms deal with some rich companies. Apart from that the term customer satisfaction is the buzzword for them both and these guys would bend down to any level to attain it.Yes,I accept that the customer is the king in any business but the problem is that these guys treat customers as god.It is ironical that they call the IT/ITES industries as service industries.Yes,the servitude has not ceased and that is precisely the point.Perhaps its in our genes.This is the pathetic state of corporates.(Not Infosys alone.)

Yes,corporates provide jobs for lot of Indians.But then Bin Laden also provided jobs to millions.Its actually immaterial to talk about the employment creation as it is not the main motto of these companies.NRN can not make a 100 clones of himself and be the office boy, Chairman at the same time.He knew the fact and that is why he or anyone for that matter recruit people.It is more or like a symbiotic relationship where both the employee and the company can not survive with out each other.

Coming to NRN,mind you he is not so angelic person as it is portrayed and this is not the first controversy he is involved in.There was an ugly episode where national anthem was played like a cheap mobile ringtone as instrumental version in an Infosys function and it was justified as below by NRN,

“Indeed we had arranged for five people to sing the anthem. But then we cancelled it as we have foreigners on-board here. They should not be embarrassed while we sing the anthem.”

Remember the function was taking place in Mysore campus.Tell me what would I make of a man who says our national anthem is an embarrassment to some foreigner(Example of Servitude which I referred earlier) . Mr.Murthy unfortunately is known for such intelligent statements and it makes me laugh when I hear hues and cries supporting the man.Not only that there is a lot more,type "Abolish IAS","Catamaran,SKC microfinance" etc. add Narayana Murthy and do a google search you will get to know.

Getting to the other part,that is the not so tasteful comments on Bhagath's qualification and personal life.It is very unfortunate.To put things in perspective and be honest,I have never been an avid book reader.I just started out and even to me after reading couple of authors I can see Bhagath's book are not so intelligent types. Class,brilliance are not something that can be associated with his books.But what is striking is his simplicity of subject, language(yeah you heard me right),good humor and his ability to strike a chord with the reader.

You seem to claim that his books are only masala filled when in actuality all of his four books convey a message or portray the problems of the society like education(5.someone,Revolution 20-20),violence in the name of religion(3 mistakes of my life),subtly motivational (1 night @ the call center) and the need to abolish regionalism(2 states).MK Gandhi said,

One of the objects of a newspaper(or a writer in this case) is to understand popular feeling and to give expression to it, another is to arouse among the people certain desirable sentiments, and the third is fearlessly to expose popular defects.

Going by that theory Chethan has been doing all of that.His choice of subjects and thoughts behind his books are relevant to current state of affairs.He is cool if not the coolest. Unfortunately,he has made a name for himself already.Nothing can be done hereafter,so chill out bro.The other point I strongly felt about was the allegation saying he is a writer who writes about his love affairs, publishes it and earns a living out of it.

Kindly see this video before saying that he is making a living out of the books,


My FB status was something like below after seeing that video,

Always thought that Chethan is overrated..But then, seeing his thought of keeping his books price low so that it is affordable for everyone says how far he deserves the attention he gets..
MORAL:There is always a price for everything and there is nothing called luck..

For your information,his books are minimum rated and almost you can buy the original copy for a price which is equivalent to the price of pirated copies of books of other authors. Bhagath's books don't cost more than 100 bucks whereas other Indian author's books are sold at a minimum of 200 or 300 bucks.Mind you that he was not begging in the streets before,he was an investment banker.He must have earned enough there.

Regarding the other not so tasteful comment on his love,that is very wrong.As you suggest its not the affair he has written about rather its about his relationship(love, marriage). In some places the book might have explored into more personal levels but it is very much common in mainstream commercial writing. Mind you that he is not writing books on spirituality,neither he is Vivekananda.Its your fault to look for such stuff in a love story.My point is, to say on the whole as if the book is about his dalliances and affairs is misleading.You can not be that harsh.

There were other objectionable points like tweaking of story of 3 Idiots movie,Karina's fiancee character referring Chethan etc.Everyone who has read the book will know that considerable part of the movie and the plot has been taken from the book and the credit was not given to him.Know that he complained for that and not for tweaking the story.Whatever,I think on moral basis Chethan should have been given credit something like movie is based on book. Regarding the other point,what is so damn wrong in doing a MBA after doing engineering.In reality not everyone gets into a course that is in line with his aspirations.Even the great NRN did electrical engineering masters at IIT and what is he doing now?.What is the logic there?.

And(the funniest of all) what?,if NRN writes about his love it will beat all the records of Bhagath's book hands down?.Dude did you think writing is that easy and people who read are idiots to consume everything.Its not like slogging with the books in a premier institute and get a job,climb up the ladder kinda routine.Apart from skill it requires sense,taste, and heart which most businessmen don't have.And if even such a thing happens what is the title of the book?.A nerd and his romantic escapades?.Come on, you can't be serious?.

To a point I feel the whole episode was blown up after Chethan got involved in it.He has provided unwanted publicity to the gripes written merely as a part of some flamboyant speech that IT barons belt out where they are invited to preside over.

I think this is too trivial a matter to be given importance.Than focusing on the quality of select students (in this case IIT) the entire education system should be looked into and improved. Any constructive debate or criticism on that part will prove sensible than squabbling over student's quality who are already in the top ladder of the Indian educational system.Donkeys can be taken care later,do something about the pathetic insects first.Look down,Mr.NRN 90% is a majority to be taken care than the 10%.We guys will appreciate if you talk in a broader level than to be making narrow comments.

To his supporters,kindly know that NRN is no Christ or Gandhi.In a country where Gandhi is criticized and taken for a ride NRN is actually nobody.The same applies to Bhagath as well he is also not some Bhuddha.But then we can not bash someone on the basis of our likes and dislikes.There has to be a fairness in the criticism.If I have crossed any of that it is simply because to counter the unfair criticism on Bhagath.

Note:I know that at some places I had been harsh.But can't help I had to be honest about what I felt and it is not wrong before the wild accusations of the other party.For the record,if you wanna call me NRN hater I wouldn't mind.But it is actually the corporate structure and the so called management techniques that I hate.NRN is juts a catalyst to that.Also I will support an author against a business man any day.It doesn't have to be specifically Bhagath and Murthy.


P.S:This is just to record my objection.No other mean purposes like comment,like generation intended.After 20+ odd years of existence in this world I have an idea about right and wrong and this is simply in reaction to what is wrong.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

There is a concept called a travelogue which avid travelers use to write about their travelling experiences in a dedicated blog.For a guy like me who mostly is confined to four walls of my home(more precisely to the PC ) that concept has never excited me.But here this time I am going to write about one of my travelling experiences where I visited a temple.Yes,its an account of a temple that I visited lately.Even though I am not highly religious, I am always deeply spiritual which I don't showcase.Apart from spiritual factors few other things about this trip caught my fancy and here I am to record them all.

(can see the absence of roof over the deity's head)

Rowthanallur is the name of the place where this simple yet most revered temple by locals  is located on the lap of a chain of hills and mountains.Green lush surrounding the temple  renders a serene look to the place.As soon as I stepped out of the vehicle the first of the many surprises was waiting for me.As far as I know the word temple that too a temple in Tamilnadu brings  the picture of towering gopurams* and sprawling mandapas* in your mind but oddly the deity of this temple has not even a roof over his head.I wondered his simplicity where his counterparts selected places beyond seven hills  and deep jungles as their home which later became our place of worship.

(The Shrine of Lord Aanjaneya)

Wondered at the fact I inquired my dad who lived in the neighborhood decades ago.He said that there is a folklore that the deity denied a roof for his temple and whenever anyone tried to build one there will be lot of hindrances.Even Aanjaneya appeared in one of his worshiper's dream who wanted to build the temple and told him that he wants to be in the open space and he doesn't require any shrine.Even when I visited the place the immediate place over the deity's head is open.The other deity Venkateshwara  whose shrine is few feet away from that of Aanjaneya has roof.And the other areas of temple like the administrative part has roof.Perhaps the god whose home is the entire universe would have not come to terms with the fact that he will be restricted to a small temple.
(Another picture showing the absence of roof )
The deity's statue is made up of a 9-10 feet single rock.The nuances and the subtle carvings of the statue exemplifies the olden sculpture prowess.There are generally two forms in which the deities appear in temples.One is shantha roopam* which forms the majority and the other is Ugra roopam* which is kind of  furious form.Goddess Kali is mostly associated with that form.Here in this temple Aanjaneya also appears in Ugra roopam*.It is said that with the full decoration on, during Saturdays some people get terrified seeing the deity.In olden days people seemed to be scared even to cross the temple alone.
(One of the chain of hills surrounding the temple)
The statue is made such that his weapon Gadhai* is in his left hand and his right hand raised above the head as a sign of blessing the people.There is a dagger in his waist and his tail raises over his head with a bell on the end.Teeth is elongated at the edges of mouth signifying the Ugra mood.Apart from that the temple is at the outskirts of the village where mostly it is devoid of human intervention.The hills,the tress and the chirping of birds proves a heart lightener. Even though the deity is of furious mood it is certain that there is a peacefulness that creeps into the mind after you do the dharshan* of the lord.

(The shrine of Lord Venkateshwara)
More than the lore,more than the interesting state of temple and more than the peace of mind that one gets after visiting temple I guess there is also one other factor which made me write this.If you analyse the name of the village or town where the temple is located then you can find.Yes,as the name "Rowthanallur" in which Rowtha,the altered form of Islamic name "Rowther", suggests the village and the near by areas are dominated by Muslim population. There lies the beauty where the lord has decided to place himself to send across a message. Even I heard(from my dad) that the area is known for the religious harmony and few section of Muslims even revere Aanjaneya and this miraculous temple.

In the times where the words temple and Masjid can not sit together in a sentence(even if it did its for the reason of scandalizing some issues),in the times when  politics can not run with out the name Ram, this messenger of Ram has sent out a message that temples are not the cornerstone for his worshipers and all the deity stands for is harmony and love.Even the very being of Aanjaneya suggests that even a soul in a beast form can elevate into divine form if it believes in right things and allows itself to be lead by love.This is what fascinated me than the other things which made me to take up writing about this in the blog.I guess its high time that we keep religion and faith inside the corners of four walls of hearts and act with compassion. Its high time that we take up love as our religion and treat fellow humans as human.Hope with the blessings of Lord Aanjaneya it happens.Let him give us the maturity to embark on the path of love.
(Close up shot of the Shrine of Lord Aanjaneya)

Catch up the Tamil version of this post @ http://veedhiulaa.blogspot.com/2011/09/blog-post_27.html

*Tamil terms for which this little mind doesn't know English equivalents. :P.Sorry even googling did not help.

Saturday, September 17, 2011

I can't remember the last time I wrote something funny.When this thought came over  I decided to write something satirical and personal as satire comes easily to me and it has worked out well too in the past.But later to widen my writing skills I consciously avoided it so that I can try other styles.You can see that,of late posts were kinda serious,critical and hard hitting which is as a result.But now I needed a break and thought of sharing something funny  that happened few months back.But then, the post on Gandhi needed attention with August 15 approaching and I went with it.I said to myself that I will finish it off and lay my hands on the funny post.But unfortunately the post on MKG was/is not over and that particular post had to wait.While things were like this a week ago something happened and I can not stop myself from reacting to that.This one is not satirical nevertheless I thought I should write on it. So despite MKG,despite the need for satire here I am.

Life is all a search.As one grows up the number questions about human life and the world increases.Life is an eternal persuasion for answers in which most questions go unanswered or vaguely answered.But each time one finds an answer and get nearer to the truth, he tends to become a better person and get enlightened.The collective amount of answers by one's own analysis paves the way for what is called wisdom..End of the day not every time one finds an answer and not everyone is lucky enough to find answers.Having said all that, the point is one has to ask questions about the world,about what is right & wrong no matter what.Seeking the answer, finding it,attaining wisdom and all is secondary and it hardly matters because once a question is put forth, it is bound to transform into answer at some point.I can hear you saying, "Alright,so what is your damn question that makes you blabber and torture us like this?". But wait,before getting to the real question which formed the reason for this post let me tell you how it came into my mind.

It was just another day.And I was on just another travel to office in a MTC bus(I owe a big deal to the MTC buses.I don't know where else will I get ideas for my posts :P :P).What happened after that was also just another incident.But the effect it left was not just another experience.It invoked thoughts on a lesser explored domain.Let me stop building up and get to the act.As the bus which I was commuting in stopped near a SEZ ,which sheltered more than few IT firms,a bunch of crowd climbed up the bus.The bunch also constituted a section of girls. Among them one was extra bright good enough to catch my attention.She got into the bus and stood few feet away from me. She was simple,of normal complexion without much adornments and showy make-up. To be frank, she was not very attractive but the way she carried herself was very different.There was a certain elegance in her personality.(This is what I meant by extra brightness.Nothing else).

Look wise,the half-up casual braid was good on her.It lent a traditional look.And to be frank I was bit pleased if not completely impressed by her.Yeah,its me who is saying this.One has to take a break from saying range and all that at least once in a while,right?. (Evlo naal dhan nanum nallavanave nadikradhu).Moreover, not only a guy who keeps on looking at every girl he comes across has something wrong with him but also a guy who doesn't see any girl at all too.A few flirtations here and there won't harm.So that was my moment of violating my convictions where I was admiring a girl after a long time.But call it misfortune or some unknown sabotage,  it did not last long.The place where I have to get down was approaching. Hell,it was hardly 3 or 4 minutes that she got into the bus.I cursed god,fate and luck etc and  half- heartedly prepared to part from the brief romance.But to my surprise she also moved forward to the door to get down.Now what the hell is happening,I thought.

I was elated.She moved towards me and I was standing near the steps.She looked at me.I understood and moved to the side making some space.The bus stopped.We both got down.And again in a minutes the crisis came.I had to cross the road.I turned and looked at her.She was heading straight down the road.I was heart broken and  stopped for at least a consolatory farewell look or a momentary hesitance or at least an acknowledging gesture.But she had no time for any of it and walked past without any turbulence. There came the first question,How can girls just break a guy's heart,shred it into pieces and walk away just like that without giving a damn as if nothing happened.

I felt too bad.Won't anyone, if they see a girl slightly of their liking after a long time and end up walking away just like that?.What that girl would have lost if she had passed on a smile.That may be too much to ask from your point of view.But If I can take time to write a blog post on her and If I had admired her to that extent why shouldn't she smile at me or say a 'Hi' or even ask my mobile number.Is it a big deal?.I mean I am not expecting her to propose me or something which will be definitely too much.Even if she did I would not have accepted right away,you know.Why didn't she see or apprehend the worth of my brief romance?.

Forget about her,it might be too much to bring her and this incident into the analysis.But in general looking at things happening around,you tend to ask why the girls are so comfortable in breaking a guys heart.Do they know what it is to be a guy?.And how difficult it is?.(Indha bit ah thane avanga poduvanga saying,"Do you know how difficult it is to be girl and all that?).Yes,being a girl is difficult and also being a guy is difficult too.

Yeah,it is very difficult to be a guy, not just a guy but to be a good guy or say an adequately-mediocre good guy like me :P.How many hardships a guy has to fend off from this scrutinizing world.Even I run the risk of damaging my image(which hardly exist) by writing my admiration for some random girl.Yes,If a guy says he was attracted by a girl then the look that follows him is like "You criminal!!"  whereas when a girl says "I like Surya.He is cute/sweet( or any other term which the boys exactly don't like) " or "I like John Abraham.He is very handsome " etc sitting in her living room in front of  parents, no judgments are passed.I am not emphasizing on the freedom girls enjoy but the way boys are Stereotyped.(This last point is not for fun..Trust me I am damn serious). Even though stereotyping is entirely different I brought it here to underline the difficulty of guys.The point is  if there are good girls there are good boys too.If girls have honor,principles boys have that too.(I guess I am digressing..Let me stop this here).

Hm-mm..A mini listen-hour has been staged.What else to say?.Is there anyting left?.Wait, even though the post is funny there has to be a message,right?.(Msg illana box office la nikka mudiyathu :P :P).Ok!.here goes one,

Dear Girls,

                Know that guys are not all the same.And don't break a guy's heart just like that.Even if the circumstance demands breaking it do make sure that there are less cracks.Especially if the guy is me then give a special consideration.(See I am writing a blog and all on this topic).And on a serious note these points are not made on behalf of all guys to all girls but from the guys who know their limit to only the girls who are good or conventional or not narrow minded or whatever you say. Importantly this is not for both guys and girls who are out of the above lot.

Yeah,I know this is too much of a reaction for a 3-4 minute,one sided,good for nothing,stupid  romance.(now you must know the reason for initial grand philosophies.You did not see this coming right?.. What to do.. Nonsense doesn't sell as it is.It has to be wrapped up with some fancy wraps. :p :p)..On a serious note,I know this particular instance is too trivial to complain but yet went ahead for the sake of fun and for trying something different.

Also the thing is these brief interludes are the ones which causes more anguish than other serious relationship problems as it is the case that the prick of a pin is more painful than a stab of  the knife.And finally If you think I was so smitten by that particular girl and the ramblings are as a result then you got me wrong.(Simply, Ada Tisha illana Divya.. Ah..next.. next..). One piece of info that I deliberately missed out is that the girl I saw in bus was from the same company I work for.She is from a different branch and her ID tag said it all.Given the fact that she is from my company and knowing her location its not very difficult to track her .But that was not worth it and the episode was nothing more than a  casual admiration.A passing cloud,its not a rain cloud :P.


  • By the way I talk please don't conclude like I have failed in love or some girl has overlooked me.(He he..Adhellam namma kitta nadakadhu.. :P :P).Yuck,disgusting,for heavens sake don't ever think like that.Love is too big a word and if there is anything that I am strong about in life then that would be not to abuse that word ever as much as possible.
  • These frustrations are only as a result of largely one sided one day or one week or few minutes romances.Nothing more than that.Company(that is me :P) is not responsible for any other inferences..
  • And also there are few points about girls which might be interpreted as offensive if there are any such it is purely for fun and no other intentions considered to the best of my knowledge.

Saturday, September 03, 2011

MACHI OPEN THE BOTTLE has been almost the campaign slogan for THALA'S grand 50th gambling GAME OF MANGATHA.But I was almost feeling like hung over before even stepping into theater with the courtesy of just a 3 odd hours of previous night sleep.(Won't say crap like its coz of expectation of the muvi).It is said that,In insomnia you're never really asleep neither you are really awake.(Guess mine should be described as the habit of bad timing of sleep than insomnia). I was in one such limbo state when I entered the theater with my friend. Since it was the second day of the movie the crowd mostly constituted with Ajith fans,few families representing neutral crowd and movie buffs as usual with the exception of few Non-Native girls(sadly along with muscly boyfriends).Point is there were not a lot of chances for excitement that can wake my spirit up out of deep slumber.So I had to gulp a cup of tea to liberate myself from the hangover, which I did and I rushed to the seat just on time.And the rest is as below,

Before proceeding let me tell you something.Like everyone my interest on the film had been heightened by the chart topping songs and the rocking trailer.I speculated like Ajith would be an undercover who acts as baddie to discover some crime and thought that in climax his cover will be blown away where he would come in cop outfit. Secondly,when people emphasized a lot on the climax and its big twist,I thought it should be Arjun who is the villain in disguise.But against all the speculations the opening was a real surprise.Ajith comes up just like that on screen without much fuss in a cop uniform( and blows away the undercover possibility).The opening was a no nonsense affair sans build-ups like the hero walking in slow motion swaggering with his footsteps echoing all around or some sidekicks singing praise of the hero or with a irrelevant song containing social messages showered on will.Rather it was cut to chase and was to the point.If that proved positive then there was also one negative side to it which is the fact that the opening was only to the point, cut to chase affair in the entire first half.

The film opens with Ajith, a cop, rescuing a smuggler (Arvind Akash) from other cops in a fake encounter.The fight sequence is followed by the opening Mangatha song in a retro club atmosphere. Next morning Ajith finds himself sleeping alongside Lakshmi Rai whom he has met in the bar the previous night(which marks the source of many funny one liners in the first half that entertains the "Kudimakkal" :P).In the meantime Ajith's girl friend,Trisha,visits him and Ajith has to literally chase out Lakshmi Rai.Ajith,then, gets acquainted with Aarumuga Chettiyar(AC) a smuggler/ gambler who happens to be Trisha's father through Trisha herself. There Ajith meets Arvind -a sidekick of AC- whom he saved and Vaibhav,one of the other servants of AC. As the time goes by,Ajith who has been suspended for his part in saving Arvind finds that there is a transportation of IPL betting money of 500 crores into AC's place and also learns that Vaibhav along with his friends ,Mahat-a bar owner,Prem-IIT passed out (his noodles manda and IIT student?, Seriously?..:P ) who is a friend of Mahat and the local Cop Ashwin has planned to loot it..

Arjun dons the CBI officer's role who is determined to route out betting scams in IPL.At one point Ajith encounters  the gang of four saying he knows their plan and warns them that they can not get the money as there had been last minute changes. He lends his hand for looting in an exchange for a share and the gang of four accept it.Eventually the four loots the money with the help of Ajith and keeps it in a safe place.They decide not to divide the money as both cops and AC are on the hunt for lost money. What happens in the next two days and how people try to betray each other and whether each individual's trick of taking the money without sharing it with others succeed,who finally takes it and what happens to the money forms the rest of the story.

To say about the movie,it is an out and out Ajith's blazing Sehwagisque aggressive game(This is my F**king game..) played with Laxmanisque artistry in Venkat Prabhu's ground.The way he has essayed the baddie role stands out.He is known for emoting even subtle,delicate feelings of the characters well and for his romantic hero image.His rare method acting skills in movies like Vaali, Citizen, Villain, Godfather testify what a fine actor he is. But this one is like never seen before.Top notch and exotic.(Ammo!!!).Never before I have seen him flinging cuss words with venom,laughing menacingly, threatening or ferociously shouting to this extent as he has done in this movie.(Ummah!!!). And dialogue delivery has been razor sharp with the crisp one liners.As VP says there are no punch dialogues but every dialog that Ajith says is with a punch.Simply put Ajith has been the deity of this 50th youthful fest orchestrated by VP..

Apart from Ajith ,the second half( and Climax) is the biggest plus and it is rocking except for the patho song which slackens the pace a bit.The direction and the scene conceptions (especially Arjun and Ajith confrontations ) are phenomenal.Bgm and the overall texture also adds to the narration.But the other part(1st half) is sluggish. There are lot of dents in the screenplay and it is exposed well in earlier part.People say the entire 1st half is waste but I feel that it is kinda average which had been deteriorated  by director.The tracks are good but their placement is very poor hampering the pace.Added to that Premji with his mokka,good for nothing jokes doesn't help.But then some dialogues,one liners and Ajith/Premji's pranks after boozing is funny and get applauded.The director has showed his necessity to establish the setting and plot (which is justifiable) before delving into the main act but making the audience wait for entire first half has proved a bit negative.

The carnival starts with the pre-intermission scene where Ajith -sort of - does a mono acting with the chess board planning to take all the money himself.It sort of depicts him as a mad man which he claims himself in the second part repeating the verse I am a mad man many times.(Ajith wanted it to be Batman Joker like and to an extent the disturbed obsession/mania has come out well especially when he says I'm a mad man).This particular scene and the scene in which he confronts Arjun, after having kidnapped Andrea are the real mass.(Geth..Sema Mass..).The pace that picks up in that pre-intermission scene almost sustain until the end making the other flaws in screenplay,direction and the likes dwindle and vanish finally when the audience comes out watching the bloopers.

Regarding the cast,Arjun(Action king..I'm impressed !!!) has done pretty well and his unbent cop role gives a boost to the movie. Vaibhav has got some scope to act and he fares decently if not brilliantly.Concerning the female roles only Lakshmi Rai manages some chance of performance.In parts she is sizzling as long as the shot doesn't get close up to her face :P.(not that she is ugly). And I must say few of her costumes in opening song and few of her moves in songs are irresistible .Also she gives that glam quotient in the first half providing some reprieve from the sluggishness. Regarding others,Trisha does her part in songs and couple of other scenes she was given. Anjali, Andrea and partly Trisha has been wasted and they only prove vital in pre-release promotions.Nothing in the movie for them.

Concerning male casting,Premji and Mahath's casting are eyebrow rising. Endhiran spoof and Simbhu spoof in climax only works for him. Newcomer Ashwin has given a decent performance.Arvind Aakash doesn't make any impact. Jeyaprakash as a goon and Subbu Panchu as CBI had done a neat job.Music?,its a chart-buster,Period. I liked the theme , Vilayadu Mangatha,Ballelaka and patho song.Initially I did not like Ballelaka but after seeing in theater I liked it.( See Disclaimer :P).Bg score is explosive.The theme was blazing with the movie.It was reverberating in my ears even after couple of days.Simply banging.

Regarding direction and script,Venkat Prabhu's contribution is mixed.Brilliant in parts and completely sloppy at times.My first reaction was negative and I was kinda unhappy with the script and screenplay in few places.But the raving reviews also gave positive points on VP,apart from Ajith, which I was able to get later.His decision to not justify and give reason for Ajith's grey shade tops them all.And his knack to mix the serious thriller with fun has paid off to an extent even though I feel personally that serious treatment would have made the movie more global than a rustic flick.(But not sure whether it wud have run like this).one liners for Ajith are rocking..We can criticize VP for lot of things but we should remember that it could have been worse if we look at the past.VP simply has been the KING MAKER..but leaves us saying GIMME MORE in first half.

All said and done I got to say few words about Ajith. First of all the actor deserves all the appreciation for choosing such a role.His diversion from conventional route and his grit to break the myth is evident from his decisions like the one in which he specifically wanted a negative role when heroes are so particular about image.Secondly he never had any problems to act as a 40 year old which none of the younger generation actors will have the guts for.I mean, will any of the present actors sport a grey hair and look like an oldie?.Thirdly,his magnanimity to share screen with Arjun and rookies like Vaibhav,Ashwin etc where ego problems rules the roost in Kollywood.All this goes on to say that he is in a different plane of acting and thinking.One needs sheer guts and tremendous confidence to do such things which are in abundance in his case.He has proved to be a MYTH-BREAKER in all aspects not only in reel life but also in real life. Remember, him disbanding his fan club?.Simply he seemed to have the below questions in his mind,
வெளி வேஷம் போடாட்டா இந்த வெற்றி கிட்ட வராதா?....
புது விதி எழுதடா...புரட்சியை செய்து காட்டவா டா ?....
for which he has come up with apt answers through Mangatha.He has won(opening collection is second only to Endhiran) without disguises and has done a revolutions of sorts(Quote by UTV's south cheif says it all." Ajith's Mankatha proves that running a fan club is not necessary to ensure great 'opening' when the star is in the hearts of fans/people.") and has set benchmarks...THALA POLA VARUMA...


Verdict: The movie may not be a perfect movie(could have been better).Well,But then I went to see it for the second time and still found it exciting.Go without expectations and be put up with first half(which is not so bad),if you do that, you will love the movie for sure even if you don't have any liking for Ajith.For rest of the Thala fans it is a treat.Sheer celebration..

1.I have opened the topic with things like hangover,bottle etc.Hangover?..That is too much for a guy who will get real hangover upon just smelling the bottle..:P :P..I mean I'm a teetotaler(Endha ketta pazhakamum illadha nalla payabu artham.. :P :P)

2.I have said I liked Ballelaka song after seeing it and this has nothing to do with Lakshmi Rai even though she looked suave in the song.:P :P..(Ada..Evlo naalaiku dhan nanum nallavanave nadikradhu..:P

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

What is the real measure of people ?. What reveals their true colors?.Can they be measured by achievements and accomplishments?. Or is it in the good nature or honesty?. I guess, none. Accomplishments and achievements amounts to nothing.Good nature and honesty may break in the face of adversity and desperation. If so, what then?. The age old cliche,A friend in need is a friend indeed can give a good insight. The moral of this is, adversities are the measure of people and nothing reveals their true colors than that.Not only humans but this applies to nations communities, cultures and other entities as well. The 1930's US depression and the holocaust can be quoted as examples which were defining moments for the respective entities.In Indian context Jalianwala Bagh massacre can be an example which christened revolutionaries like Bhagath Singh.

Recently there was one such instance which revealed the other sides of someone when I read a book about Nethaji Subash Chandra Bose and a speech by an assassin during his trail. When exposed to few other facts after googling the dilemma got consolidated. At the end I got a feeling that People are good, decent, respectable and dignified as long as you know less about them and you see them from a distance. When you get near,take a closer look and dig deep, all you see is dirt and filth.It almost applies to everyone.Only the amount of dirt varies. Perfection, like in other cases, is an abstract concept in humans too.Okay, Enough of opening lecture I guess.Let me jump on to the real episode,

The revelations that I referred were about Mahatma Gandhi.We all know about Nethaji and Gandhi's ideological differences and contradictions in their quest for freedom.It is not a big deal.Violent or Non-violent, their goal ultimately was freedom.Principals and paths are like branches of rivers flowing into the same ocean.But it came as a shock when I was exposed to the political games that were played by the very Mahatma who advocated the concept of loving even enemies.It was disheartening to learn that his repulsion and clash with SC Bose was to the extent that when Nethaji won congress presidency elections against Gandhi supported candidate Sitaramayya in 1939 he,Mr.MK Gandhi, publicly declared that Sitaramayya's defeat was his own defeat.Some people cite this as Gandhi's intolerance for Bose's growing influence and the fierce competition that Bose gave. MKG viewed Bose as a threat (not clear whether to him or his ideologies).As it is the curse of Indian politics there was also factions and separatist Politics prevailed then too.But this time it was inside congress itself and the larger part, as one can guess, was formed by Gandhi worshiping group.

The other part was radical wing(communistic and radical parts) which respected Gandhi but had questions over his ahimsa methods.(Let us get back to these factions later).Even in that Gandhian ideal obsessed time SC Bose won,as his vigor and zeal for freedom inspired faith and belief in many.But one can empathize Gandhi on this one too, given Bose's radical and militaristic ideas.(It is said that Nethaji wrote in a book that India should take up a fusion of Fascistic Mussolini and Communistic USSR approach instead of democracy once India is freed. Even he went on to say that the first 20 years after Independence should be followed by dictatorship where the country can be stabilized economically and be industrialized soon.Personally I don't think this was a bad idea given what we have seen of democracy).All these facts and Bose's inclination towards Mussolini,Hitler could have made MKG do such things in a fear that country should not wind up in wrong hands.But things, sadly, doesn't stop here.

Most upsetting part was the little episode that eventually got Nethaji expelled from Congress.In 1939, Tripuri congress session which was held at the brink of a precarious national separatist politics at its bitter height and international imperial powers' rivalry good enough for a world war.Nethaji brought a motion that the Congress should serve a six months' ultimatum to British to leave the country and in the event of their denial the country should go for Poorna Swaraj (through armed methods if it calls for) taking advantage of the War clouds surrounding Britain.But Gandhi opposed that and said he will not embarrass the British during the war and said demanding a Dominion status was his idea (giving administrative power and not the complete freedom).The moderate wing was even ready to send Indians to world war 2 in support of Britain to get favors from English.

Even in world war-1 similar thing happened where Gandhi approved Indian soldiers usage in the belief that Britain will favor India after the war.But Britain had only time to gratify itself than to look at India or to listen to MKG.Due to this spat Bose was removed from presidency and was expelled from congress by MKG's influence.Personally this was the most disgusting part for me.Being a fighter for the cause of freedom for over 25 years(from 1915 to 1939) Gandhi (or the moderate wing ) was so defensive that he was politely asking favors from the indecent robbers for our rightful liberty which was voiced as our birthright by a revolutionary(Thilak) in 1906 itself.I mean they had no necessity to beg for favors,privileges and concessions when we rightfully deserved full freedom.The same defensive approach has been captured by a letter that is doing rounds in the name of Godse's speech during his trial.Here goes the copy of that..

Nathuram Godse's Final speech in Court

With regard to the letter one has to look right from the early genesis of Congress to have a clear idea.In the early part of 1900s the freedom movement was scattered.The resistance to the British rule were less intense and sporadic in the form of minor mutinies and uprisings which the British controlled without even moving a muscle.The hatred and repulsion was not channelized to be utilized for the cause of freedom.Even though congress was formed in 1890s, it was ineffective as a result of factional politics with in.But,with Gandhi entering the scene in 1915 situation changed.He provided a face to the movement and found a strong,reliable leader in him whom the masses can count on.But for his presence there was no way the nation would have fought together for the freedom.(I mean one part of India would have been doing one form of struggle and the other completely opposite. For instance due to this lack of Co-ordination the Sepoy mutiny of 1857 failed pathetically.Had it been coordinated and the attack been made in unison the results would have been different).

Having said all that,the nation had to pay for the solidarity that Gandhi gave.(One of the few rational points that the letter makes). Gandhi with his magnanimous sanctified methods charmed the millions and helped himself to be the man who was beyond questions,doubts and arguments .He enjoyed monopoly in deciding the fate of the country and his belief and methods were perceived as an holy mantra.In 1920s Gandhi declared Non-cooperation movement in which millions of people participated.(1920-1930 was the golden period which saw all the factions and parties-including the materialistic Muslim league-joined forces with congress and fought).The movement was going well and it was about to make cracks in the British but due to a minor incident in Chauri Chaura where a group of villagers burnt a Police station with officers trapped inside, the Non cooperation Movement was called off by MKG citing that people are not ready for non violent methods.

Many from Non-congress factions noted this as a mistake and thought that the movement should not have been stopped when it was gaining momentum and making impact.Many such following incident involving MKG and his decisions made the other factions unhappy.In gave a question.It was the question of what gives a single man the right to decide the fate of the country of a millions and jeopardize their chances to taste early freedom(by stopping them by taking arms) which at the end resulted in increasing loss of thousands of lives with every postponement. A nation can not suffer because of the outdated, oldfangled and primitive thinking of a single man was the opinion of some people in 1940's.It was told that Sacrifice is something which is done at one's own cost and not with the lives of others.(Even though these comments are not well thought and narrow minded I guess there is nothing wrong in questioning someone or their ideologies and trying to establish the credibility/understanding. Only intense censure and abuse is what I don't accept).

Godse's letter reflect few of these points about Gandhi being the own judge and jury for his cause.Asking for credibility of his doctrines is in a way tolerable. Other than that I feel that his speech is more of a hypocritical cry of a communalist who had spewed his blatant hatred on the other religion and bragged his less evolved,primitive understanding about Hinduism.It is more of an attempt to insinuate himself as a sacrificer and dub him as some hero of sorts as opposed to a cold blooded murderer who mercilessly shot a 70 year old man who can not even walk on his own.In that letter apart from Gandhi's approach and the alleged adamance there is one other thing which is cited as the reason for contempt on him not only by Godse in 1940s but by some people even today in 2011.

Many people that I have spoken to argue and note this one thing as the reason to disapprove Gandhi.The allegation is on the lines of below verses, Who is responsible for partition?.Mohd.Ali Jinnah?..No,he was a tamable communal force and not the representative of the entire Muslim population in India.Is it the British who did not want India to prosper after they left?..No,British even though have sown seed for this in 1900s,did not have much to say at the fag end of their rule over India..If so,then who is the reason for the partition?..The one and only man responsible for partition was Mohandas Karamchand Gandhi with his pacifying approach towards the Muslim league.

Partition and the subsequent Hindu-Muslim rivalry and few others even go on to say that the current reservation system based on caste is because of him.Ah..Partition?..Its a never ending story.It surfaced in 1940s and its story is still going brisk with people pointing each other across countries and borders as a reason for the historic event.Still there has been no solid theory of the truth and the account of real guilty.Given these facts, to analyse MKG's role and to pass a judgement on him is no ordinary thing.It requires a deep analysis.Let us see in detail in the next post with answers to these questions and also about the analysis on riots,violence as a result of partition,MKG's assassination and the communal politics(sadly the thing which never ended and which is very much alive today.There can be no politics today without this communal element) which is responsible for everything.

Find out in the next post whether these reasons and the reasons in the upcoming post are good enough to answer the question in the title," SHALL WE KILL GANDHI?

I do not believe in writing my posts in parts and publishing them in different time intervals as my writing largely varies and changes with my moods.But this time my laziness got the better of me.This post was supposed to be published by August 15.But after writing few parts of the post ,it never went forward and got stuck.Blame my concentration span. Yuck,my concentration has become like that of Indian batsman in England.Very short and poor.. :(.So I learnt that If I wait to finish the entire post then I will post probably by September 10.Or else I might altogether drop the idea after sometime.(The review for Deiva thirumagal is in one such condition.).On the other hand If I publish the initial part then I will be obliged to write the remaining as well out of duty and commitment.(Epdilam plan panna vendi iruku..Aiyo Rama..Sorry..Hey Raam..with relevance to the topic..:P :P)..Kindly tolerate for making you wait.See you in the sequel post shortly.. :D

Monday, August 01, 2011

Today is Friendship day?.Oh,man never knew it..Anyways,I am  not interested to say things like Friendship is this,that and all..Not gonna say  those cinematic dialogs like distance and circumstances can not make difference in friendship coz I learned that reality is, it badly does..Will never say there should not be expectations in friendship since It has been always proven that human nature always focuses on what it gets in return when it invests something be it time,love,money or care or anything for that matter..And there is nothing wrong in it...One can/should never restrict friendship to the words given to us by strangers..Its what we feel inside and it varies from individual to individual.. 

On a personal level wanna say that ,Of late I have pissed off lot of guys and lot have antagonized and upset me as well. On a broader level it is very much part of the bargain..My outbursts,my silence and my differences with others as a result doesn’t mean I don’t like them...It means I have my own way of dealing things and I have my own way to love and care..Not often hugs and kisses is love and sometimes slaps and kicks also constitute love. And my strong repulsion to “Public display of affection” thing doesn’t help much either and I don’t believe in exhibiting what I feel for people .I believe that there is a certain sanctity to each and every bond and it doesn’t stay the same when it is manipulated into words and silly deeds(You see I have my own vices :P ). But in the end against my PDA(I mean public display of affection ) policy I would like to let every soul out there  know that I love you guys with all your frailties,with all your strengths and weaknesses and your differences even if  we  keep silence,even if we are  not on speaking terms, even if we are being a jerk to each other,even if we do not have time or don’t want to spend a couple of minutes to ask how we are and our lives.  Doesn’t matter,YOU ARE LOVED,just get it.

In the end ,I never expect others to do the same and accept me or like me for what I am..There is no obligation.  I do not expect anything in return or expect others to reciprocate anything.Its  not because I have become too matured overnight or I have just been enlightened under a bodhi tree..Its simply because few of the noblest souls,of late, have shown me that “Friendship is all about accepting someone for what they are without ever bothering to change them.  Its about accepting and loving them with all their shortcomings.Its about giving love even when you do not receive it.”..They loved me with all my defects and they never bothered to change me...No words to thank them for being in my life..They really rock..They really do..HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY FOLKS... :)



Thursday, July 28, 2011

It is said that an examined life is not worth living.It is important for us to think over the path we tread on and think about what we do once in a while.We can not be right all the time and even if we are right it is always good to fine tune our approaches and our way of life once in a while.In one such moment recently where the examination gave bizarre views no matter in whatever perspective I thought I had to ask only one question at the end and that was "Should I stop blogging?". That was not just my whim and the subject just did not come out of nowhere but it was a well scrutinized thought lingering on my mind for sometime for a number of reasons.

Even though there are various reasons for the thinking,a considerable part of the share goes to suffering and pain inflicted.. Pain,suffering?..Yes,I am talking about blogging and not about some sombre love story.Even though it will be a huge disgrace to compare my love on writing with other forms of love- like the love on a mortal girl-, the characteristics of all love is the same.The thumb rule is that,Pain is part and parcel of love without which love is incomplete.Only difference is the magnitude of pain.And it is directly proportional to the amount and depth of affection.Given the kind of mania I have for writing I don't think I can explain what I get in return in terms of the above pain theory.At times writing for blog is the most dreaded thing that I do and I have learnt that the irony of life-at least my life-  is that you-have to- dread what you love the most.

The pain- in blogging- is at its excruciating best when you sit before the computer all day to write something and you just manage nothing.End of the day,the gift of that nothingness on the paper is a sheer bloom of guilt and overpowering angst.The guilt is like something that you feel during exam days which is best described as Exam-eve Syndrome characterized by an anxiety that is always in the back of the mind saying I-have-to-read incessantly, no matter whether you like to read or not.Guilt and necessity like that in writing turns into a defiance after some days of this doing-nothing game.It gives an impression that writing is not fun anymore and it feels like writing is a heavy labor.Eventually mind tends to looks for excuses for not writing.

In the past 3,4 months my writing experiences has been such a turmoil where I am torn between this defiance to write and my unshakable urge to write.Oddly both this urge and the defiance can be attributed to the same thing,that is,genuine inspiration.My approach of late has been such that I don't write unless I get an inspiration, unless I am taken in by an idea and moved,gripped and swept across by it. A quote from Inception can help explain the process, Once an idea has taken hold of the brain it's almost impossible to eradicate. An idea that is fully formed, fully understood sticks to the mind firmly.Such an idea,unless it is given a shape and form wrecks havoc inside and corrodes the mind.The only relief for this is to give it a shape and put it on paper.This process is important and I should not go about writing as a habit or routine and practice it.When I do that,when I sit in front of a computer at a specified time and write, it is more of a exercise and not a creative process.

So I just insanely wait for the idea to occur and occupy my mind.(And the wait is nothing but a masqueraded guilt of not writing).Of course the prize that I pay for this theory of inspiration is being idle without writing for a long time.(I have unconsciously picked up lot of such bad habits lately).To give an example My notion of inspiration is worse to the extent that I have decided to write a short story in January and it was fully formed,complete in my mind at the end of  February but I have not penned it down still.The reason I give to myself is that I am not getting the right narration.I say to myself that writing is  not only about the plot and the flow of story and scenes but also about the right words, sentences.I mean  story is nothing but a collection of right sentences and the sentences are nothing but the collection of right words.Each and every word has that power to influence the story.And I wait insanely for the right voice(narration) to say the story.

If suffering is one thing that takes a heavy toll in writing then there is another part that is equally pushing me towards the question of quitting not only to blog but all forms of writing altogether.It is nothing but the thought of What this blogging has been doing to me?.What it is turning me into? I am scared the most when I look at myself from a third person’s perspective.It is said that Man is a social animal and that he is at a well knit social structure.But for the past 3 or 4 months or so I have been everything but social.Only the Animal part holds true.There is a complete alienation  from my social circles and my interaction with the outside world was to the extent that my mom called me one day and said,"This is your mom.By any chance do you remember?. If that is the case you don't have to ask about other interactions.Only few of my closest,tolerant and noble hearted friends only are in touch.

They say that world is so big but in my case it doesn't seem so.In one aspect if my ideas,views and mindset are constantly expanding on the other hand my world has been constantly shrinking.From a landscape of 7 continents and a population of  7 billion it has reduced to me,my family,very few friends,my blog, Facebook and finally by the way my office(can't count that out even if I want to).My activities,thinking,approach and my reasoning has been very new even to myself.They seem strange and a touch crazy.Every time I reflect on this I have to suspect my sanity and my grip on reason and sense.But when you look around you get to know that the reality is writing is a onerous task and it requires lot of solitude,silence and reflection.Introversion seems to be the mandatory prerequisite for writing.Guess I am getting used to it. Even a touch of  madness is required and it is widely accepted that  madness under control is creativity and that the intermediate level between a normal person and a mad person is being an artist.It is said that  Writing is a socially acceptable form of schizophrenia.  

 In my case I am not sure whether I am being creative or not but definitely I am going  crazy.
You might be wondering what I mean by madness which I have not given the full account of.I can say using my minimal skills that it is nothing but the over obsession and the quality of looking at things differently from a normal angle,I mean often socially not understandable or acceptable angle.In a way I might fret and complain all about this madness and solitude.But When I analyse deep I can find the reality which says change is very much part and parcel of life and instead of fighting it one should take it in his stride and make sure that the change is for the better. Moreover change stands as an evidence that something is happening in life and there is life in your life.I find the  Kannadhasan's below lines very fitting about change,

காடாய் மேடாய் கல்லாய் மாறாதிருக்க

வனவிலங் கல்லன் நான்..
மாற்றம் என்பது மானுட தத்துவம்..
மாறும் உலகின் மகத்துவம் அறிவேன்...

 we can say that change is the philosophy of human life and it is inevitable.So If this period is a metamorphosis I should not make a big fuss about it and take time to get used to it and if this is a passing phase then I'm bound to make sure that this gets over with least possible damage to me and those around me.Though there are things like the above to bother, I don't have an ounce of  doubt that writing has broadened my views,increased my understanding  of the world and even more importantly it has enabled me to understand myself better.The insight and the learning because of blogging can never be explained.It has given me maturity(not the stupid template which people follow but the mental maturity to see the world as it is) and has taught me the importance of value,principle and honesty. It has made me a better person.Apart from that the amount of joy,the sense of satisfaction and establishment that I get out of this can not be explained.And when you can get such a feel you can go through 100 times this suffering and pain.(When I see all the posts of mine from march I feel that I have not wasted time.) 

As long as you derive inner help and comfort from anything, keep it says Gandhi.Going by that that I should never leave  blogging as it is giving me more than what you can call pleasure.I don't know what is it with me and this blog.Its kinda my first love.I mean I have 2 or 3 other blogs but I am not at all dedicated to others as much as to this.Finally I have to accept the reality that I can never keep myself off from this blog.So guess I have to keep on doing this.It has been a constant companion,my identity and my practice court.I guess,Practice court is the right analogy as I have been trying new things and different aspects of writing, testing and challenging myself every time I write a blog.Also I am not bothered about what people think as long as I improve.Hardly the criticisms(minus the feed backs and genuine opinions) aimed at bogging me and my writing  matters to me.As Paulo Coelho(one of my role models in writing ) says Learning how to write by reading critics is like learning to make love by mail.

So I absolutely don't heed what others say.When you listen to the silly complaints and unfair criticisms you never grow and accomplish anything.More over a good writer is one who writes no matter what others say and no matter whether others reads it or gives him compliments or they accepts it.He writes for himself.He is a writer just because he writes no matter what happens.I am not sure whether I am one such but I am trying to be one like that.It is impossible to discourage the real writers - they don't give a damn what you say, they're going to write.I feel that god has given me a gift in the form of writing and I do not need Nostradamus to say that I have makings for a writer.It will be a shame and I am not doing justice if I do not make it big given what has been endowed upon  me and most importantly for the amount of hard-work and time that I have put for writing.So no stopping me from blogging..It goes on and on...(Sorry to frustrate those who got happy seeing the title..Hard luck I am gonna get you guys pissed of as usual.. :P :P ).Blogging is equivalent to oxygen to me.

People think that I am joking around and they fail to see that this is a very serious business to me and not a mere fooling around.(When I wrote a love story long back by December many  friends thought that I was trying to get some girl's attention and it was a cheap flirting.But they don't know what I am upto).As a matter of fact all the above craziness, solitude of late  is a part of my efforts to conceive few of the stories that I got ideas for which I believe will push in the direction of realizing my dreams.(All the build ups on writing are actually kinda because of that as it was bit draining frankly.)I have ideas for like 5 or 6 stories.But I am not sure when I will write them as you are aware of my notion of finding the right voice to say those stories.One thing I can say is that there is a big surprise waiting for you guys when I finish one of them.That story will take me to the level of writing medium and will kinda upgrade my blog.
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